Ivy was such a daydreamer as a child. This was a habit that she couldn’t break out of even as an adult. Ivy lived in the big city until the age of 14. Ivy’s mother had divorced her step father a year prior and could no longer afford to live in the city. They moved to a small town in the middle of nowhere in Ohio. The first couple of years were very hard for Ivy to get used to and she never really adjusted to the small town way of life. Even though she was only 14, Ivy felt such a betrayal from her Mother for taking her from all her friends into such a small town. Ivy was just so out of place. She never could tell her mother why she was angry with her. So Ivy just spent her time in her room listening to music and missing the one friend she really loved Amy.
Amy was a tomboy just like Ivy, only, Amy was way better at it. Amy was tough like a boy, strong like a boy, and even rough like a boy. Amy and Ivy were the all stars in all the sports at school. The coaches would always see the girls together whenever a new season of softball, basketball or volleyball would start. Basically, the girls were inseparable. The girls were often teased being called the “Twins”. Funny, Ivy thought if only now in this small town if she could only call out and Amy would be right there for her.
Everything started happening so quickly at the beginning of their eighth grade year. The girls had been the “Twins” now for 4 years. Their high scores in basketball were at a all time record high for the middle school. Ivy had the record of most home runs in softball for a single season. Amy had the most aces scored on their volleyball team. But Ivy had no idea that this would be the last year for them to be together.
Neither Amy nor Ivy got a lot of love at home, so both thought their friendship was that nothing more than friends until the day Amy’s parents decided in the middle of the school year that they would be moving away to West Virginia. Of course, Ivy, herself, had no clue that at the end of that same year she would be moving also. Ivy knew in her heart Amy was her best friend nothing would change that and that’s when it happened…Ivy woke up back in her small town life, in her small town room, listening to the damn small town country station on the radio.Ivy couldn’t remember when it was that Amy had left that year school. She started to cry, and as she cried her mother was yelling for her to come to dinner.
As Ivy lied there in bed she just wanted to scream at her mother to just shut up! It was the first time in forever that Amy was really there with her and now to know it was only in this damn daydream. How did she do it get back to her? If only she could just close her eyes and get it all back. Before she could turn off the radio this country song came on called “Ivy please come back to me.” again she listened to the DJ had she heard him right? Again she heard “Ivy please come back to me.” Up the stairs Ivy could hear her mother calling “It’s time for dinner Ivy get your ass up here before it gets cold!” But Ivy couldn’t move all she could do was listen to the lyrics of the song. This was the way Ivy knew she could get it all back…
Come back next week to see if Ivy can figure out a way to get back to her best friend Amy. And see what other things are in store for Ivy. Thanks for reading I hope you’ve enjoyed the start of these stories. Take care and have a great week this is Stacey with your Lesbian Limbo. I can be reached at L8dyvenus@aol.com
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Hi this is Stacey with your Lesbian Limbo. If you didn’t catch last week’s article, you might be a little confused with this week’s article. I have started a semi-sort of short story about a girl named Ivy Heart. If you did miss last week’s I’ll post it on my myspace page. If you are not a friend of mine on myspace, just email me and I’ll send you an email of last week’s article. Here is part two of Ivy Heart:
Ivy Heart wasn’t sure if she was hearing the lyrics of the song correctly or not. It was a woman’s voice she was hearing, but only if she listened closely. When the song first started, Ivy could have sworn the song was being sung by a man. What was so erie was the woman’s voice in the song was that of Amy her best friend. What was even more odd. Ivy thought to herself, that she never, during their entire friendship, had ever heard Amy sing.
“I miss you…How long until I see your face again.” The lyrics sounded if an angel were singing them to her. Ivy started to cry. “How did we get to this place? It seems as if I left you with no chance to escape back into my embrace.” Now this made Ivy feel very strange inside. She was still just a kid and she really had no idea of what sexual feelings even were. Ivy just lied there on her bed and closed her eyes tighter and tighter. As she did, she saw Amy standing just in the distance. Amy’s figure was more grown-up then how Ivy remembered. Just as Ivy was about to reach out to Amy, everything got darker. Amy started to fade away. Then suddenly like someone had lit a fire inside, Ivy she realized that Amy was more to her than just her best friend.
As the song ended it was then that Ivy’s memories of Amy started to disappear and, within seconds, Amy was just another friend from the past. That was the way it would have to be. Ivy didn’t even have a clue to where Amy even was. It would be years again before Ivy would ever hear that song. But, be certain though, when she does; her life will forever change.
Ivy’s high school days would go by pretty much uneventful. The once all-star in sports was now just another average player. Yes, at times though Ivy excelled, but not like the days with Amy. Ivy now had troubles meeting friends and more trouble knowing how or what to do to keep them as her friends. Poor Ivy was just a naive city slicker trying to fit into the country world she was now a part of.
Once though, when Ivy came home from school she got a letter in the mail, but there was no return address. Ivy’s mother almost decided against giving her the letter, but did anyway– figuring it was some sort of junk mail.
Ivy went to her room opened the letter and started to read…
Dear Ivy,
Hey bff I miss you something crazy! I came through the town that you said your grandparents lived about a month ago. I asked a few of the people there if they knew you. It was really weird, cause the first woman I asked was your grandma. She gave me your address. So I wanted to write you as soon as I could. School has been really crazy my mom has moved us three times since we left you. Dang, buddy I miss you something awful. I can’t stand playing any sports without you. People in this little hick town here in West Virginia are so mean to me. I am trying though to fit in. My older bother has lived here since he was a kid, so Mom left my Dad and we’re living with him for a short time. Are you still playing ball? I really miss you! I know I keep saying that, but I do. I wish I could see you. It’s been what–almost two years now I think since I saw you? I would give you an address to write me, but I am not sure how long till we move again. Please don’t forget about me. Now that I have your address I’ll write again. Oh yeah, I wanted to let you know this really weird thing that happened to me about a month after I left school. I was listening to this stupid country station and I heard this song. Please don’t think I am crazy! But I swear it sounded just like you! Weird right? Well best friend you take care and I’ll write again soon.
Love Amy
Ivy didn’t know what to think at that point. Did Amy hear the same song that she did? Or was there some other hidden message that was sent to Amy. Oh, Ivy didn’t want to think about it too much. So she just hid the letter under her dresser drawer. She just sat there on her bed and cried herself to sleep…This would be the only letter Ivy would ever receive from Amy.
I hope your enjoying my story about Ivy Heart. I just have been kind of winging it right now. I thought I had this part of the story already finished, but I went back and changed it. So anyway I hope you enjoy. I’d really love any feedback With that being said I can be reached at l8dyvenus@aol.com
Take care all and have a great week.
Stacey
———————————————————————-Hello everyone I hope you’ve been enjoying the story of Ivy Heart. I have basically been winging it each week and I’ve not gotten any feedback so I am only hoping that everyone likes these stories. So let’s see what this week has in store for Ivy & Amy.Ivy was counting down the days until her sixteenth birthday. It was almost two years now that Ivy had even heard from Amy. She’d given up on the fact that Amy would ever be a part of her life again. The letters had all but stopped. Ivy knew Amy had more than likely moved on with her life.Ivy was very excited when the day of her birthday finally rolled around. Ivy’s family was taking her to Virginia Beach for a weeks vacation. It was the first time in years since the whole family was able to get away. Unknowing to Ivy this would be their final vacation together. As they arrived at the beach Ivy was so excited this was the first time Ivy had been to this particular beach. Ivy’s family usually vacationed during the week right before school started. Ivy always thought this was her Mothers way of trying to make up for moving. The first day of vacation Ivy decided to go for a walk on the beach. She was a good ways into her walk when she came upon a group of kids playing beach volleyball. This of course was one of Ivy’s most favorite sports. She decided to sit and watch for a bit. This was when Ivy realized that one of the girls playing was Amy. Ivy wasn’t sure as she sat watching if she wanted to talk to Amy or not. These feelings were all still new to Ivy, but she was going to sit there and do her best to control the throbbing that she was now feeling between her legs. But even then Ivy had no idea what it all meant.“Ivy” said her mother. It was then Ivy realized she fallen asleep on the beach. “What happened to the kids playing volleyball on the beach, what happened to Amy?” She could have sworn that Amy was right there.“Mom” Ivy said. “Do you remember my friend Amy?”“No hun, should I remember her”“I just thought maybe that you would have as much time that she and I had spent together. You know all the sports we played together and she’d been over to the house a few times.”“Oh! Yes as a matter of fact honey I do remember her. She was, what the girls called your twin. Am I right?” her mother said with a semi-sort of look of confusion on her face.“Yes mom that’s her. The oddest thing that just happened to me was that she was just here with me I was watching her and these other kids playing beach volleyball. Isn’t that strange.”Ivy’s mother replied “Ivy you’ve been laying here sleeping for the past three hours.”Ivy thought to herself why do these things keep happening to me? Why does Amy keep haunting my mind? I haven’t really thought that much about her in the past couple of years.“Mom do you care if I go out for a walk in the morning? I’d like to see if I was really dreaming.”“Sure kiddo if you want too. But honey you’ve really just been lying here sleeping, but if you think this is something important for you to do it’s fine. Just be careful to not go out too far.” her mother said trying to act all loving and caring.Next week will Ivy figure out the reasons why she can’t stop thinking about Amy or will something more outrageous happen.
I hope everyone is enjoying the holidays so until next week this has been Stacey with your Lesbian Limbo.
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As the morning sun started to rise Ivy knew today that she was either going to find out if that was Amy on the beach or that it obviously wasn’t her. Ivy was such a pessimist. She was sure it wasn’t going to be Amy. Most of Ivy’s life had been spent being so negative, but today Ivy was going to do her best to be more positive. It was also hard for Ivy living with a family that was always so negative too. Although, while everyone was there at the beach, everyone’s negativity seemed to fade away. Leaving Ivy to wonder–did my real family get kidnapped by aliens? And who are these imposters.
After the family finished breakfast Ivy asked her mother if it was okay to go for a walk along the beach. As Ivy headed down the steps of the condo it was then that she got a glimpse of the girl that she thought was Amy. Ivy went running towards the girl. What if this is really her? What do I do? What do I say after all these years? All these questions swirled threw Ivy’s head. Ivy also thought for a moment too, why did my own mother lie to me and tell me I must have been dreaming? Ivy knew that this was really Amy.
As Ivy reached out to the girl and gave her the biggest hug she could have possibly given anyone it was then that she realized that this wasn’t Amy. As she pulled away this girl looked at her and smile Ivy gave a semi sort of smile back and then started to cry.
“Hello,” said the girl with the most amazing accent Ivy had ever heard. Ivy was a such a fool for foreigners. Ivy had always wanted to go to Italy. But the strange girl’s accent at the moment had no effect on Ivy.
“Oh my gosh, I am so sorry! I totally thought that you were my friend Amy that I used to go to school with and I haven’t seen her in, well… actually, it’s been over two years now and I just miss her so much. Amy just really meant a lot to me. She was my best friend.” Ivy was so frazzled that she could do nothing but cry.
“Oh, please don’t cry. I am sure I didn’t mean to, how do you say look so much like your friend to make you start to cry.” Ivy could do nothing but fall back into the girl’s arms.
“I wanted you to be Amy so very badly. I don’t mean to be acting so weird. I don’t even know you and I am acting like such a baby.”
This strange but familiar looking girl looked at Ivy and said “It’s ok I’ll hold you in my arms for as long as you need to cry. Funny though, most times I just have my Teddy bear to hold when I cry. It was my mother’s before she died. Can I ask you a question though since I am holding you?”
“Of course.” Ivy sniffled.
“Could I ask you what your name is? My name is Nicolette. I was born in France. My mother, before she died, was a student there in France . She was from America. My father and I moved to Italy when I was around five, so I never knew much about my mother. But I feel lucky I can speak French, Italian and I am working on my English more while I am in America. My father actually found my mums family. He thought I should try to get to know them. Mum died when I was four. It was right after she finished school and was coming back to America.” Nicolette almost started to cry herself, but held off instead she wiped the tears from Ivy’s cheek.
Ivy said “My name is Ivy. Nicolette that’s such a beautiful name. When I was a kid everyone like to call me ‘poison Ivy’ it just really makes me mad now though. I am sorry about your Mom”
Nicolette smirking. “It’s ok I don’t really remember a lot about her. I just have a few photo’s of us when I was younger. Maybe I’ll show them to you sometime. Most people though, in America, just call me Nic. I guess. How do you say I like to be sounding tough like a boy. That’s funny ‘poison Ivy’ was it cause you made everyone itch all over?”
Ivy started to giggle and shook her head no and then she started to laugh. For the first time since she’d mistakenly took Nicolette for Amy.
Nicolette laughed too. “You have a nice smile when you are not crying. Would you like to come with me. I was just heading down the beach to meet up with some other kids I’ve met since being here to play some ball.”
“You play volleyball? Oh my gosh I love volleyball. Of course, I would love too!” Ivy would almost wonder off anywhere with her new friend just to hear her talk.
“Would it be ok if I were to hold your hand?” Nicolette asked Ivy as they started walking down the beach together. Ivy thought for a moment that this was sort of odd, but she really needed a friend so she just reached out and took Nic’s hand in hers.
Nic was really surprised that Ivy took her hand. Most American girls would have laughed at her and made her feel like she’d done something wrong, but not Ivy. “Ivy did I see you watching us yesterday? I saw a girl that looked just like you that was there watching us yesterday as we played volleyball.”
Ivy drifted off into the words Nic had just said to her. How strange had I really actually been there watching the kids playing volleyball? But Mom told me I was lying on the beach sleeping for three hours. What was my own mother trying to keep from me?
Could Amy have been there at the beach after all? Is Ivy’s mother really keeping her from Amy? Come back next week to see what happens.
This has been Stacey with your Lesbian Limbo. Take care and have a great week.
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Ivy Heart really didn’t know how to respond to Nicolette’s question. Had she been watching them yesterday like she thought she had been?“No that couldn’t have been me!” Ivy said in a more confused sounding voice then she wanted it to sound.“I’m sorry Ivy it’s just that we were playing volleyball yesterday and my cousin and I noticed this girl watching us. The next thing we knew there was oh, what are they called? The bus things that take you to the hospital. I guess the people around her had thought that maybe she got dehydrated or fainted from the heat. We thought maybe that she got caught too far out and almost drown. But anyway we didn’t stop to look our game was pretty serious yesterday. You know how you can get all caught up in it all. It was my cousins last day here so we were having one last good-bye game. This was the first time I met her too. She lives in West Virginia. Didn’t you say that you lived in Ohio? I am studying your states in school.” Nicolette was rambling on at this point. But it was that little detail that Ivy should have been listening to but didn’t. Ivy really didn’t understand if that had been her on the beach yesterday or not. But it was becoming more clear in Ivy’s mind that her Mother was keeping something from her. Ivy surely would have remembered being put into an ambulance. Ok Ivy thought this time Moms going to answer my questions as soon as I get back to the condo. Ivy came back into the moment and she was looking at Nicolette sort of oddly.“Sorry Nic I drifted off there for a second. What was it that you were asking me?” but Nicolette just said never mind. Nicolette thought that she might have upset Ivy. So she decided not keep bugging her about it. So until they got to where the kids were playing volleyball Nic just changed the subject.The group of kids they were meeting up with had already begun playing volleyball when Nicolette and Ivy had arrived. Each team was pretty much already made so Nicolette told Ivy to go ahead and play. Ivy was thinking this was a great opportunity to show off some of her sporting abilities to her new friend. Instead it wasn’t long into the game when Ivy jumped up to spike the ball and she came down on the wrong ankle twisting it the wrong way. So much for showing off, Ivy thought to herself, as she lie there in the sand trying not to cry through all the pain. Then again she had cried on Nicolette’s shoulder once already today what harm was it going to do now that she had a legitimate reason for crying.Nicolette agreed that she needed to get to the hospital so one of the kids there who was a local said he would take her. Ivy got Nicolette to go tell her Mother what had happened. Nicolette said she would and that they would meet her at the hospital.A few hours later Ivy was hobbling around on a pair of crutches. And somewhat out of it from the pain medicine that she was taking. Ivy was so thankful that she had only twisted her ankle instead of it being broken and the crutches were just for the next day or so. Also she was thankful for the fact it wouldn’t hopefully affect her playing sports at the beginning of the school year. Although Ivy’s Mother was pretty pissed off about the whole accident and couldn’t stop bitching about it to Ivy it didn’t much matter to her what did matter was how poor Nicolette must have felt having to tell her Mother what had happened. Ivy’s Mother was very short tempered. Ivy knew that there was something she needed to talk to her Mother about but right now she just didn’t feel like it. Ivy was too much into her pain medicine at that point to really care.Four days later the girls were heading out for a swim in the ocean together talking about how they would be able to keep in touch. Especially since Ivy’s trip was about all but over. The family would be going back to Ohio in two more days.“Nicolette,” Ivy said with a bit of sadness in her voice.“How many times Ivy must I tell you to just call me Nic!” Nicolette said in a mildly stern voice that Ivy wasn’t used to hearing.“I’m sorry. I just would rather call you Nicolette. I honestly don’t like calling you by a boys name. I thought I would. I just think your too pretty of a girl to make people think of you as a boy. Oh my gosh, now I am starting to sound like my Mother. See Nicolette the thing is I really think I like you. It’s you being a girl that I really like.” It was then that Ivy for the first time ever really said something like that out loud. Rarely did she ever tell anyone the feelings that she may have had. Maybe Ivy thought after the words had already been said that Nicolette would just think that she meant “liked” her just as friends.“Ivy I have liked you too since the first moment you grabbed me. And even though it was only out of how do say a mistake in my identity I thought how lucky your friend Amy must have been to have such a good friends with you.” Nicolette was smiling such a big smile Ivy thought for a moment that Nicolette might be the one this time to actually cry.“Ivy the other day when I asked you to hold my hand I think I even knew then that I liked you. I never knew that I could like another girl the way I like you! I had a boyfriend once before my father and I came to America but we only went to the movies twice and he dumped me cause I woudn’t kiss him. It was weird cause he had a this really nice face but his teeth were really yellow and looked like they were about to fall out.” Nicolette was so cute when she would get to talking English really fast her Italian/French accent really was noticeable then. Nicolette started to laugh about the whole situation with that boy then Ivy joined in too and then they both couldn’t stop laughing.Before they could catch their breath from laughing so hard or before either one could get the chance to chicken out they kissed. The kiss itself was sort of awkward but for the girls they were both surprised at how much desire they felt towards each other. Ivy felt the butterflies from the bottom of her stomach clear to the tips of her toes. As their lips parted a big wave hit them knocking them back to the shore and back to reality.Two days later on the way back home all Ivy had was an address and a picture of Nicolette and her together on the beach. It was also on the way home that Ivy got up the courage to ask her mother again about the so called “dream”.
What will Ivy’s Mother tell her? Come back next week to find out. This has been Stacey with your Lesbian Limbo and part 5 of Ivy Heart thanks for reading. ———————————————————————-Ivy sat in the back seat of her Mom’s car listening to her favorite Wham CD. Her eyes started to tear up as she did her best not to think about how much she already was starting miss Nicolette. Their good bye was only just a few hours ago, but for Ivy it seemed like days already. Careless Whisper was the song playing on her headphones as she watched the sunset on the horizon wishing she was still on the beach with Nicolette.“Ivy wake up. Your sisters and I are going in for a potty break and to get something to drink. Get up honey and, at least, stretch your legs.” Mom said letting the car come to a halt at a gas station right on the West Virginia border.“Mom how long have I been sleeping?” Ivy said as she wiped the drool from her bottom lip.“Just about two hours. Are you coming in with us?” Mother said, trying not to seem bitchy ,but sort of in a hurry up voice, since her bladder was on full and the gas tank wasn’t.“No, Mom, I am ok. Hey Mom, what do you think about me going to Italy as a foreign exchange student next year? I have been thinking about it a lot especially since I met Nicolette.”“Ivy I don’t know we can look into it if you want when we get home.” Mother actually wasn’t even going to give it much thought beyond Ivy’s asking her right now.After they got a few more miles down the road, Ivy’s sisters had fallen asleep. Ivy decided that this would be the perfect time to take advantage of asking her mother again about the day at the beach. The day that she knew she in her heart that she saw Amy. But what really bothered Ivy the most about that day was the huge void right in the middle of the day that she couldn’t remember.“Mom I really want to ask you again about that day at the beach.” Ivy said with a real distress to her voice.“What about it Ivy,” Mom said looking at Ivy in the rear view mirror. “I told you that you were sleeping on the beach. I woke you up after your sisters and I took a swim in the ocean.”Ivy took a moment and went back to that afternoon in her head. Pieces of the day were missing and the more she thought about it the more she realized that her mom was lying to her. Ivy knew her mom wasn’t out swimming with her sister, because she never liked having to redo her hair after being in the ocean.“Okay, Mom I’ll drop it if that’s what you want.” Mom shook her head yes. Ivy sat in the back seat silently the rest of the way home. Thhinking, ”is this been the first time my own Mother has lied to me?”
It was now a year later and Ivy was about to start the beginning of her Junior year in high school. Nothing much had changed for Ivy. She was still the city girl trying to fit in with all her country bumpkin friends. She had so few friends. Playing sports now, just made her more depressed. But it seemed to be the only thing Ivy really excelled at.
One day, during the start of the volleyball season, her coach came up to her and asked Ivy if she would be interested in playing volleyball over the summer at a camp in West Virginia. Ivy knew her mom wouldn’t go for it, but she told her coach that she would really love to go if she could get her Mothers approval. Her coach told her that she would help Ivy with the expenses if she could get her mother to raise the other half.
Ivy went home that night with a new take on life. She could get away for the summer; this would give her a chance to write to Nicolette without her mother reading her letters before she sent them to her. To Ivy’s surprise, Mother agreed to let Ivy go to the camp for the summer. She wrote Nicolette secretly one day at school to tell her all about it and see if she could possibly get her Dad to let her go there too.
Nicolette had been living in a town in West Virginia since the start of the school year with her cousins. Her father had to go back to Italy for business. He thought this would give Nicolette a chance to get to know her Mother’s family better. Upon receiving Ivy’s letter, Nicolette wrote back saying with a bigger surprise to Ivy that she and her cousin would also be attending that same camp.
The rest of the school year couldn’t go by fast enough. Nicolette wrote Ivy about half way through the school year to let Ivy know that she and her cousin were in a car wreck. Nicolette was fine but, Nic’s cousin wasn’t so fortunate. The cousin had suffered severe trauma to the head resulting in temporary memory loss. They would still be attending camp that summer.
Ivy really couldn’t wait to see Nicolette. They really never talked much about the day at the beach when they had kissed. Of course, Ivy couldn’t write anything out of the ordinary in her letters, for fear that her Mother would realize the two were more than just friends. Ivy wondered though if Nicolette would even feel the same towards her once the two were reunited.
Come back next week when Ivy and Nicolette are reunited. Possible will an old friend be among the other girls at the camp. This has been Stacey with your part 6 of Ivy Heart. Thanks for reading. Take care and have a great week.
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“Mom, what is it?” Ivy said trying to catch her breath. “Ivy, Nicolette just called me a few minutes ago. I wasn’t sure that I wanted to be the one to tell you this, but honey she’s not coming to volleyball camp. She said for me to tell you that she is very sorry. Her father had suddenly became ill. Look honey, I know I am the last person you wanted to hear this from, but she also said something about a surprise that she left you at camp. She said that you should find her cousin Jo. That she had your surprise.” Mom told Ivy all that she could, except the part of Nicolette saying that after the summer was over she’d be back and she hoped that even after the surprise she’d still want to be with her. Also, that she loved her very much.
Coach Evans noticed how upset Ivy was so she told Ivy that they should probably get on their way. Ivy got back in the SUV and they finally headed to camp. Although in the back of Ivy’s mind, she wondered what kind of surprise Nicolette had left for her.
Next week will Amy Jo and Ivy finally reunite. Will the connection still be there? Or will Ivy do something more desperate? Thanks so much for reading this has been Stacey with your further Adventures of Ivy Heart.
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Many girls were just arriving at the camp around the same time as Ivy. They were giving their parents hugs good-bye. Not Ivy, she was telling her coach thanks for bringing her and she’d call her if she needed anything. Ivy headed to the camp counselor’s office to get checked in. She asked if Nicolette Pegirolli had checked in, even though she knew Nicolette wasn’t going to be there.
“No she hasn’t checked in. Why do you ask, is she a friend of yours?” camp counselor Samantha inquired.“Yes, I was told that she might not be able to make it. And that she might have left something here for me with her cousin. The thing is, I don’t know her cousin’s name.” Ivy said looking for help from Samantha.
“Well, what’s your name we’ll get you checked in.”
“It’s Ivy Heart. I am from Belton, Ohio, Belton High School. I am here for the entire summer program.”
“Okay, let’s get you to your cabin and get you settled in,” Samantha said as if this was a bother to her.
Each cabin housed 16 girls; four sets of bunk beds and four single beds. Ivy took one of the singles, she figured that this would give her more privacy. Ivy was very fidgety, she wanted to know where Nicolette’s cousin was and what exactly it was that Nic had left for her.The first full day of camp, Ivy continued asking each camp counselor if they could tell her which girl was Nicolette’s cousin, but to no avail; no one knew. “Great,” Ivy thought, “this is going to be one of the worst summers ever.” What Ivy didn’t realize was the camp had two sets of classes and that it could be possible that Nicolette’s cousin could be in another class. But the one thing that Ivy was smart enough to do was to post a bulletin on the camp bulletin board looking for Nicolette’s cousin. It was almost two weeks later when one of the girls from the second class told Ivy that she thought her bunkmate was Nic’s cousin. The girl told Ivy that she had asked her bunkmate and, if she were Nic’s cousin, she’d have her meet Ivy after dinner that night.Ivy was nothing but a total bundle of nerves. She paced back and forth along the pathway to the dinner hall about a hundred times. Finally, Ivy noticed a girl that looked almost familiar to her; an old friend whom she hadn’t thought about since she’d met Nicolette. But why would she be here?Both girls at the same time said to each other, “What are you doing here?” both looking very strangely at the other.Amy thought that she should speak first. “Ivy is that really you? I bet I am the last person in the world you’d ever thought you’d be seeing here. Am I right?” Ivy shook her head yes. “I sort of knew you were here, but I wasn’t sure how to approach you. Especially since I knew that you have been seeing my cousin for the past what, almost two years.” Amy was feeling almost sick inside knowing that it should have been herself that Ivy was in love with.
“Amy,” Ivy said, “I had no idea that you were Nicolette’s cousin. I am still trying to grasp the whole concept of all of this. You’re Nic’s cousin? How could it be? I was missing you so much the day I meet Nicolette at the beach; you were there weren’t you? Why didn’t she tell me she knew you? Explain that to me. Did you have this whole game planned out right from the start? Tell me Amy, what the hell is going on!” Ivy was now shouting these questions to Amy.
Amy wasn’t sure what to say. She’d known for a few weeks that she should look for Ivy but it was just easier to just watch her from a distance. Each day that Amy watched Ivy playing volleyball reminded her of all the old times in grade school together. Ivy looked so much more beautiful now than they did as kids, just 5 long years ago. Ivy was starting to become a woman and this made Amy want her even more than ever. It was just so hard to get past the fact that her own cousin was the one that Ivy loved.
“Ivy, I know this must really look bad for both Nicolette and me, but the funny thing is Nicolette never knew and I know this seems a little far-fetched, but she only knew me as Jo. She never thought about my name and I never told her any differently until she saw the picture of you that I had of us from when we were in school. That’s when the shit really hit the fan. I told her that my first name was Amy, well … that it was actually Amy Jo, but my family preferred to call me Jo ‘cause there were already so many other hillbilly girls in my school called Amy. So Ivy, in all honesty, she didn’t know. I told her from the get-go that my name was Jo. So, don’t blame her. She was going to be here but she wanted to go back to Italy for the summer. She missed her father.” Amy could tell by the look on Ivy’s face that she didn’t believe a word she said.
“Ivy let me just tell you this, Nicolette really loves you; but she never knew I was the one who loved you too.” Amy couldn’t hold back her secret any longer. She knew the tears were coming full force now and she could feel them coming down the sides of her cheeks.
In the distance, through the trees, the camp announced, “Campers, your weekly bed checks and mail call in 5 minutes. Any campers not at your beds for this will have to run laps at morning practice. Also tomorrow group B will be having classes outside.”
Ivy looked at Amy, still in shock that it was she who was really standing there in front of her. “Ivy,” Amy asked, “I know we both haven’t even begun to understand everything, but could we talk about this tomorrow sometime? I can’t run too many laps; it hurts my ankle too much after about 5 of them. I am very happy to finally get to talk to you and see you; I am just sorry it’s under these circumstances.” Amy turned and headed back to her cabin but before she did, she handed Ivy two envelopes.
After the bed checks Ivy lied down on her bed and began reading the first letter that was from Nicolette.
Dear Ivy,
I am guessing by now you’ve met my cousin Amy. I wanted you to know that I had no idea that Amy was your best friend from grade school whom you missed so much. I was introduced to her as my cousin Jo. I know you might not believe that but I have no reason to lie to you about this. I didn’t come to camp because, Ivy, Amy Jo is in love with you too I wanted you to be able to spend this time thinking about what it is that you should do about our situation. I have decided that by going back to Italy for the summer might be the best thing for me to do. I might come back for the last few weeks of the summer but only if I get a letter from either you or Amy telling me that I should. I’d like to think that I am being the bigger person by having you get back in touch with Amy. She’s loved you a lot longer than I have. I hope that you realize that you are her first love. And mine too. NicoletteThe second letter was from Amy. Ivy decided that all this was way too much for one night; she’d read the letter from Amy tomorrow. Besides that it was almost time for lights out. Next week, will Amy’s letter to Ivy rekindle those old feelings from their childhood? Will a visitor to the camp make everything change? Come back next week to find out. Thanks for reading. This has been Stacey with your further Adventures of Ivy Heart and your lesbian limbo. All feedback is very appreciated. Btw sorry there was no new story last week I was in Oklahoma visiting my Dad.————————————————————————————-
Once again Ivy’s life is in complete chaos and full of confusion, drama and total lesbian limbo. So tell me friends what could possibly be the news that Amy wants to tell Ivy? Well, I guess you’ll have to come back next week to find out. Thanks for reading. Take care. I can be reached at l8dyvenus@aol.com Stacey
Ivy Heart Continues.
Posted in 1 on February 19, 2008 by lesbianlimbo
Now Amy was starting to laugh. “I bet I know why she stopped giving you, your letters. I started writing ‘I love you’ on the back of each letter.”
“You know Amy, I really wish that we were finished with school. I have to finish school. I was actually hoping to get a volleyball scholarship. I want to go to college. I secretly was hoping to go back to Italy with Nicolette, after our senior year. Funny how things change within a matter of moments.” Ivy was still drifting off into her own thoughts. She forgot how she told Samantha the camp counselor that she was going to go home. Well, no since in leaving now. Maybe it would be a good idea to just put girls out of her mind for awhile and like she told Amy, work on getting that volleyball scholarship.
“Ivy you know, why don’t we just stop worrying so much about everything that’s happened to us since grade school and let’s just start over again as friends. Can we do that?” Amy was doing her best to be sincere.
I think this would be a great idea Ivy thought to herself and just shook her head yes in response to Amy’s question.
The next few weeks seemed to fly by. The girls were becoming best friends again. Both were doing everything they could, not to think about the summer ending. The competitiveness came back too. Both had to see who could out do the other. Each of them received a letter from Nicolette which didn’t really say much, she sent them both her love and told them that it was probably for the best that she stay in Italy for her last year of school. Nicolette said she ask her dad if Amy could come live in Italy for her final year in school. That was the only hope that Amy had to look forward to. Amy didn’t hear from her family for the rest of the summer.
When the summer finally does come to an end, what should the girls do? Well guess what, I don’t have a clue either. So tune in next week for the further Adventures of Ivy Heart.
Have a great week.
There were many obstacles in the way for Amy, she didn’t have a home to go back to; for one so there would be no way for the scouts to see her play during her senior year. Also Amy’s grades weren’t that great either. She had no idea of what she should do? Ivy and her both were really great friends again, so maybe Amy thought to herself that Ivy would know what to do.Both girls really didn’t have a lot to go home to. It was then that Ivy decided to sneak off to call her volleyball coach. The idea had popped into Ivy’s head that, maybe with the help of Coach Evans, she’d be able to call Amy’s volleyball coach and possible see about the idea of each girl not going back to school for their senior years, but instead heading straight into college.The idea seemed a little far-fetched coming from Ivy, but Coach Evans listened just the same. She told Ivy that she would call Amy’s school talk to her coach and see if Amy could also possibly head to college early too. Ivy knew her own grades might be a bit on the low side, but she’d hope for the best.Ivy heard back from Coach Evans right before dinner. Coach told Ivy that if they both passed the entry exam, they could go. But, also, they both would have to get full scholarships; which was usually impossible. The schools in the area mostly gave full scholarships too girls with straight “A’s” so this meant the girls were going to have to show the scouts something really amazing.
The girls both got offered scholarships from a school close to Columbus, Ohio; which both were really happy about. Ivy wouldn’t be too far from home even though, after all of this was said and done, she wasn’t sure if she’d even have a home to go back too either.
On the last day of camp, Coach Evans game to pick up Ivy. Coach had a surprise for her though. She told Ivy that Amy was more than welcome to come back and stay with her and her girlfriend at their house. Ivy just knew everything was going to work out for the best. Heck, maybe even if they both didn’t get to go to college this year, she’d at least possibly get to send her senior year with Amy.
Coach pulled into Ivy’s driveway; there weren’t any lights on. This was very normal; nothing changes here in hick town. Ivy got inside and was only greeted by her baby sister. Everyone else was in bed. Her sister told her that Mom had left a shoebox and a note in her room. Ivy went to her room and looked in the box it was every letter that Amy had ever written to her. Five years worth of letters it would take her days to read them. Ivy started to cry. It was so weird how Amy came back into her life. She’s get up tomorrow and start reading them besides that she had a lot of things to talk about with her mother now that she was back home.
Next week what will happen? Do Ivy and her Mother resolve past problems? Does Nicolette come back into the story? Come back next week to find out. Thanks for reading this has been Stacey with your Further Adventures of Ivy Heart. I can be reached at l8dyvenus@aol.com Have a great week.
Ivy Heart 6
Posted in 1 on December 18, 2007 by lesbianlimbo
“No, Mom, I am ok. Hey Mom, what do you think about me going to Italy as a foreign exchange student next year? I have been thinking about it a lot especially since I met Nicolette.”
“Ivy I don’t know we can look into it if you want when we get home.” Mother actually wasn’t even going to give it much thought beyond Ivy’s asking her right now.
After they got a few more miles down the road, Ivy’s sisters had fallen asleep. Ivy decided that this would be the perfect time to take advantage of asking her mother again about the day at the beach. The day that she knew she in her heart that she saw Amy. But what really bothered Ivy the most about that day was the huge void right in the middle of the day that she couldn’t remember.
“Mom I really want to ask you again about that day at the beach.” Ivy said with a real distress to her voice.
“What about it Ivy,” Mom said looking at Ivy in the rear view mirror. “I told you that you were sleeping on the beach. I woke you up after your sisters and I took a swim in the ocean.”
Ivy took a moment and went back to that afternoon in her head. Pieces of the day were missing and the more she thought about it the more she realized that her mom was lying to her. Ivy knew her mom wasn’t out swimming with her sister, because she never liked having to redo her hair after being in the ocean.
“Okay, Mom I’ll drop it if that’s what you want.” Mom shook her head yes. Ivy sat in the back seat silently the rest of the way home. Thhinking, ”is this been the first time my own Mother has lied to me?”
It was now a year later and Ivy was about to start the beginning of her Junior year in high school. Nothing much had changed for Ivy. She was still the city girl trying to fit in with all her country bumpkin friends. She had so few friends. Playing sports now, just made her more depressed. But it seemed to be the only thing Ivy really excelled at.
One day, during the start of the volleyball season, her coach came up to her and asked Ivy if she would be interested in playing volleyball over the summer at a camp in West Virginia. Ivy knew her mom wouldn’t go for it, but she told her coach that she would really love to go if she could get her Mothers approval. Her coach told her that she would help Ivy with the expenses if she could get her mother to raise the other half.
Ivy went home that night with a new take on life. She could get away for the summer; this would give her a chance to write to Nicolette without her mother reading her letters before she sent them to her. To Ivy’s surprise, Mother agreed to let Ivy go to the camp for the summer. She wrote Nicolette secretly one day at school to tell her all about it and see if she could possibly get her Dad to let her go there too.
Nicolette had been living in a town in West Virginia since the start of the school year with her cousins. Her father had to go back to Italy for business. He thought this would give Nicolette a chance to get to know her Mother’s family better. Upon receiving Ivy’s letter, Nicolette wrote back saying with a bigger surprise to Ivy that she and her cousin would also be attending that same camp.
The rest of the school year couldn’t go by fast enough. Nicolette wrote Ivy about half way through the school year to let Ivy know that she and her cousin were in a car wreck. Nicolette was fine but, Nic’s cousin wasn’t so fortunate. The cousin had suffered severe trauma to the head resulting in temporary memory loss. They would still be attending camp that summer.
Ivy really couldn’t wait to see Nicolette. They really never talked much about the day at the beach when they had kissed. Of course, Ivy couldn’t write anything out of the ordinary in her letters, for fear that her Mother would realize the two were more than just friends. Ivy wondered though if Nicolette would even feel the same towards her once the two were reunited.
Come back next week when Ivy and Nicolette are reunited. Possible will an old friend be among the other girls at the camp. This has been Stacey with your part 6 of Ivy Heart. Thanks for reading. Take care and have a great week.
Ivy was again not sure how to feel about her mother. She didn’t know if she should let her off easy or hold a grudge. Grudges were so easy for Ivy to do. She had held a grudge toward her mother for so long now it just seemed so much easier to continue holding on to it. She had some time today to think about things. Right now though going back to sleep seemed like the best idea.
A few hours later Ivy woke up to a splitting headache, her baby sister jumping on the bed. “Get off the bed and get out of my room!” Ivy wasn’t handling being home to well.
Ivy started to put Amy’s letters in the order they were written, she thought she’d jump ahead in time and start with the year that she met Nicolette, Ivy thought there might be something written about Nicolette in the letters. There was so many things revealed to Ivy in Amy’s letters. It was like trying to get to know Amy all over again especially after spending so much time with her over the summer. Becoming best friends all over again, finding out Amy was in love with her, finding out Nicolette was her cousin. What else could she learn about her friend.
Well, Ivy learned that the reason Amy’s parents got divorced and why Amy had to really move away was that Amy was molested by a friend of her dads. How could Amy not have told her this was going on, She also learned that it was true Amy caused the car wreck that her and Nicolette were involved in. Amy’s grandmother that was the only positive role model in her life passed away. Ivy read that Nicolette and Amy’s first meeting was at the funeral for her grandmother. Amy and Nicolette hit it off so her mother (which for Amy was the first time she’d ever do something nice for Amy) of course later Amy found out that her mother only agreed to keep Nicolette in the states was because Nicolette’s father was sending them a huge sum of money. Ivy totally could see now how Amy could resent her cousin.
Now Amy was kicked out of her home for being a lesbian, living with another lesbian couple who she didn’t even know. She was starting a new school where the only person she knew was Ivy. Ivy thought boy my problems don’t even compared to Amys.
In the few finally letters written right before camp Amy included a few pictures. Some them were of Amy and Ivy when they were playing ball together. There was a note inside from Coach Shepard it really got the best of Ivy. It said, “Girls I hope you’ll always be friends. One day I see you both becoming stars. It’s really great knowing that you both have still remained friends after all these years.” Ivy wondered why Coach Shepard still assumed that they were still friends. Ivy couldn’t blame Amy for lying to Coach Shepard especially after all the awful things that had happened to her in her life. So many thoughts kept going through Ivy’s head. But she knew that no matter what it was time she started to grow up. Life wasn’t going to be a bowl of cherries. Today she would hang out with Amy until her mom got home then later she’d ask her mother about calling Nicolette. Too much time had passed between them and they all needed to get things settled.
Next week we will see if Ivy can sort out her feelings for Amy or will she choose Nicolette. The summer months have now passed and Ivy really needs to figure out what it is she really wants from love and life. This has been Stacey with Further Adventures of Ivy Heart. Thanks for reading. Have a really great week. I can be reached at L8dyvenus@aol.comNicolette popped into Ivy’s head and she thought she give her a call. It had been a few weeks since the two had spoken to each other. She dug threw the bottom of her knapsack finding Nicolette’s number. She ran upstairs to get the cordless phone. But her sister was already talking on it. Damn, she thought. It was easier using the phone at camp. She thought I could just sneak into the counselors office, but here with two other sisters it was next to impossible to ever get to use the phone.
“Alex how much longer are you going to be on the phone?” Ivy just wasn’t in the mood to deal with her family today. It definitely was going to take time to get adjusted to being back in Hickville.
“Ivy your just going to have to wait! Who do you want to talk to you don’t have any friends or have you forgotten. Your such a loser, who’d want to be your friend anyway. Besides I just got on here anyway. You had your chance to use it now you’ll just have to WAIT” Alex was just trying to push Ivy’s buttons, but it wasn’t going to work today.
She went back to her room and decided to just listen to some music thinking that this might make her feel more energetic and get her up and going. The funny thing was though, it only made her more tired. Lying down on her bed she thought she’d read a few more of Amy’s letters. They weren’t there anymore. All the letters were gone. The box which her mother had been keeping them gone. Shit, Ivy thought if this is her sister’s funny way of torturing her it was really starting to work first the phone now this.
“Alex what did you do with my letters from Amy?” Ivy was so pissed she thought the vein in her neck was going to pop out.
“Ivy what are you talking about? I have been on the phone ever since you tried using it. Get over yourself anyway. What would I want to do with a stupid letter from your only friend from grade school, in fact, probably the only friend you’ve ever had.”
“Alex, what do you mean. I talked to you about Amy last night when I came home from volleyball camp.” Ivy was starting to feel very dizzy as if the entire floor was falling out from under her feet.
“Ivy, I don’t know what you’ve been smoking, but I definitely want some of it. Oh, wait better yet you freak, maybe you need some of your psycho pills. I told Mom it was too soon for you to come home. Hell, sister it was hard enough on Mom having to put you in that mental hospital to begin with, now your going to start acting up before you’ve even been home one day.”
“Alex stop messing with me. You know none of that is true. I’m just as normal as you are.” Ivy was starting to wonder why her sister could even say such mean things to her.
“Ivy just look at the pictures on the refrigerator. Look at the name of the building we are standing in front of ’State Mental Hospital of Columbus, Ohio’ see I told you.” Alex now bragging that she was perfect daughter.
“This can’t be true just let me use the phone. I need to call Nicolette. She’ll tell you that none of this is true. I’ll walk over to Coach Evans house where Amy is that will really prove I am not crazy.” Ivy was now hysterical. This was too much for her to take. She ran to her room closing and locking the door behind her.
What seemed like just moments later her Mother was opening the door she was with a man in a white coat. He looked sort of familiar, but Ivy couldn’t remember where she’s seen is face before. Yes, that was it, he was Nicolette’s father. But what was he doing here.
“Ivy honey, there is nothing to worry about. Dr. Pegarolli will give you a shot to help you calm down. I don’t want to have to take you back to the hospital. I really thought you being in that place for the last five years would have helped you, but after what Alex told me today about you thinking that you’d just come home from volleyball camp, about Amy, and something about a girl named Nicolette. I called Dr. Pegarolli to come here to help me calm you. Which after we talked he told me that his daughter’s name is Nicolette. He thought that was joking but honey, he told me how at the hospital you lived this entire daydream day after day. About how you and his daughter Nicolette were girlfriends. Dr. Pegarolli told me that there wasn’t anything more they could do to help you. Now Ivy, your going to go to sleep now. Just rest. I’ll look in on you soon. I am going to turn off your stereo. Ok?”
Before her mother could touch the off button Ivy heard the song. “Ivy please come back to me. How long until I see your face? How did we get to this place? It seems I left you with no chance to escape back into my embrace.”
“Mom please I want the radio left on.” Ivy drifted off thinking of her friend the only friend she’d ever had Amy.
As the morning sun came through the cracks in the blinds Ivy woke up very groggy. As she got up she glanced at herself in the mirror. Wait a minute she thought as she looked at herself even with messy hair she knew this wasn’t a eighteen year old girl that was looking back at her. Something was definitely different about this morning. Ivy ran up the steps and saw her mother sitting at the breakfast table with both her sisters.
“Nice of you to join us. I called and called for you to come up and join us for dinner last night. But you never came up. Your sister’s and I were just talking about how exciting it must be starting your new school today. I bet you’ll have no problem meeting new friends. At least I hope you have more friends at this school then you did in Columbus. It always bothered me how Amy was your only friend.” Mom had no idea that Amy was more to her than just a friend.
Ivy smiled, “Mom if you only knew.”
Ivy had her second chance at love. She’d learned that by meeting Nicolette that love doesn’t always come in the form of a beautiful Italian girl, but it comes from falling in love with the ones who loved you first. The ones that mean the most in your heart. For even though, none the memories Ivy had of Amy and Nicolette ever happened it did however give Ivy the chance to have a closer relationship with her Mom and sisters. While they sat at the table talking and eating breakfast Ivy said mom I have something I need to tell you. I was in love with Amy and one day there will be another girl who I will love…..
I hope that everyone has enjoyed reading my story ’Ivy Heart’. What started out back in November has now came to an end. Thank you the readers for going through trials and tribulations of Ivy Heart. It’s been an exciting adventure for me too. Each week I really had no clue where things were going to go for Ivy. I really look forward to bringing you something new in the weeks to come. I can be reached at l8dyvenus@aol.com Don’t forget that this coming Friday, March 14th at Woodstarr is the 3rd Annual Terry Awards. Come show your support for all the writers here at West Virginia Queer News. Thanks again Stacey
