September 2008
I’d like to apologize for being absent from the web site for so long. I really shouldn’t have to explain myself, but I feel I owe an explanation to my remaining readers. I’d also like to apologize to the staff and to the Editor, Terry, for his undying patience with me.
I recently went back to college, and I am now starting on my third quarter. I am also working full time. In doing all of this, I haven’t been able to do the one thing I love to do, and that is write. Although I can only answer for myself as to why I couldn’t juggle it all, I’d be lying to myself and to all of you when I say that I’ve had some major writer’s block. I won’t be finishing the Grace & Gabriel story. I don’t think that this decision will be too heartbreaking for anyone, except me.
Honestly, I haven’t been feeling like I belong in the gay and lesbian community. I don’t drink or frequent the bars anymore. If I do go to a bar, it’s a rarity, and only on special occasions. I don’t like the idea of being drunk anymore. I think my age has finally caught up with me! It used to not bother me to have a few drinks and get a nice buzz, but I now see nothing good coming from even one beer. It would be so nice to live in a more populated area with more non-drinking gay friends. Things could be so different for me. I am certainly not preaching to those of you who love beer or to those who love to get drunk every weekend. I am just saying I’ve lost touch with the gay community. In the past I’d go to the bar to hang with friends or meet other gays and lesbians. Now, with my full schedule of school, work, and time for just me, I am totally out of touch with what is going on with the community.
What I am mostly trying to say is that I don’t have a lot to contribute to the gay and lesbian community through my writing at the moment. It seems as if the title of my column is really My Life at the Current Moment, which is in limbo.
Sometimes, I think I have too much to say, and then at other times I can’t even get the right words formed into a sentence. If I can’t get myself to understand what I am trying to say, how am I going to get the readers to understand? I have so many things go to keep me busy, and writing was the one thing I could always do to make me feel better. I’d somehow put something on paper that made sense, and I hoped that it made sense for someone other than myself.
I am doing my best to get back on track with the WVQN web site. I hope that the readers of this column would let me know what they would like me to write. I love stories that don’t involve my own life. With that in mind, here is my email address. Please send me some ideas.
Thanks again for your understand of my absence. Take care, and hopefully, I’ll get back to my old routine.
Love to you all – Stacey
